I will always have my Spiritual Tears but my soul can rest today and I can sleep at nights!

 

MinikeGirl

People are interesting and even though I am good at the different behavior and psychology so I can still be surprised. Today I have so much experience of life and I see the world in a completely different way than what I did when I was younger. I handle situations in a completely different way than what I did when I was younger. When I was younger so went everything out on that all the time to try to escape from myself, which not resulted in the good result for the moment. It was an interesting behavior that I had on a way because it was destructive but still functioning. I strove even then, after the life I have today. I never gave up but I continued always to fight forward no matter what happened. There are so many years that I have lived when I have, according to me, stuck in me at the same time as I all the time have been developed. I was happy when I was younger and I was very protected by the outside world. I could be happy in, not to do anything but just exist. I had my family and my grandmother and grandfather within easy reach every day. It was amazing to grow up like I did. I had close to family and friends. I was surrounded by the wonderful nature, the forest and all of the farm animals. A dog and cats and all the cows. Sometimes, we even had pigs. My childhood friends and I had big fun over the years. There is so much more to tell here but it takes me and tells me another time. My childhood was really good. 

Life is life things happen that we can’t do anything about. It happens for all of us. After having lived in my security so forced even I to experience death and to slowly but surely start to lose my wall of my inner security. Had I known what I know today, had I lived differently, which neither had been good for I am happy today. When you lose people that you love over everything else so it will be chaos in your head of how prepared that you may be. I didn’t want to be the one who I was anymore and I didn’t want to be there all the time expected of me. It was expected of me that I would be like all the others. It was all the time all of these comparisons, in that she and he were so good and talented. I would curb my emotions instead of accepting that they were there. Feelings I have always had a lot of, and it has always felt like my emotional levels never really fit in with the outside world. At the same time that I began to lose my inner wall as I lost my grandfather when he died. Everything was torn and my happiness disappeared. 

This was the beginning of my quest in trying to escape from myself, and no one noticed it really in the beginning and it took many years before I really got to unleash my inner demons. First it was the grief after my grandfather who I am today struggling to handle. I shed tears as I write this and it feels good for today, it is not sadness that I feel without it is something nice because I am spiritual and I have strong abilities. Everything ripped away from me and felt that it disappeared, just changed form. The void within me is no longer available. 

I don’t go anywhere at funerals and I’d rather go not to the near relatives of the deceased graves. It is not my way to mourn, or to look at everything when it comes to death. For me, death is a transition and not permanent. I honor those who have died on my way. Everyone I know who has died I think, statistically, every other day, and I do so from the day they have died. I will do so until I die. I’m not just thinking of them, but I see and hear and talk with the many who have died. For me, it becomes therefore very strange to go at funerals and cemeteries. I respect all who find comfort in visiting their loved ones in cemeteries. We all need to get grieve and handle death in the way that works for us. Before I learned to control my abilities so it was chaos when I visited a church and cemetery. There were spirits everywhere who wanted to talk with me and accompany me home. It ended up that I had like two worlds in one world. I was born in the medial and I are a link between life and death. Today I have control of my abilities and none of the worlds takes over the other. 

In spite of my strong abilities and my strong mediumship I am human with many emotions. So, even though I know how it is I will be heartbroken when someone dies. For it is then that all of my emotions explode in detail and it is then that the worlds between life and death opens. There is so much in circulation, and I feel everything so strongly. I get exhausted because I feel everyone’s sorrow and my own. I feel everyone’s sadness so strong in the church after a funeral that it takes a long time for me to collect myself. I feel the energy of the person who died. 

I am happy today and I am proud of the person I have become. The person that I lost when I was younger and wanted to be. The person who I escaped from and the person that I have evolved to be today.

I will always have my Spiritual Tears but my soul can rest today and I can sleep at nights : 

Never Gives Up ! 

Take Care Of Each Other 

Many Hugs From MinikeGirl 

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Not the most fun to eat porridge :)

I have made my own porridge so that it will be a bit more fun and healthier, and with more colors in.

It is, perhaps, not the most fun to eat porridge but it is very useful and the body feel good to eat healthy. I have been on a long walk today which feels wonderful. It’s not a long walk as I am usually the route that I went today because my walks tend to be much longer. When I have not gone walking in a while so it was like a long walk. So now it will be fun to see  some day soon how it goes when I work out on my exercise machine  😛 

Hope you all have a good day  

Take Care Of Each Other 

Many Hugs From MinikeGirl 

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They themselves had need to be nasty

At the same time as it goes a lot of energy right now so I have time to gather new energy in a good way. I feel that it has become much better with the whole everyday life, then I started to work from home. When I am focusing me on what works altogether. It has been and felt like an eternal struggle so I had to do something, and it has been great. I can proudly say that I have achieved what I have strived for. I have a new goal to chase and I’ve become stronger in many ways. I am the one who I was before within me but I have developed and I have renewed myself. I got tired of constantly being questioned if I managed to live in a society and a system which is generally adapted in general for people to fit in. What happened was that I started a private society and a world where I surround myself with people who think and more who I am. We are also available, and even though society forget it, so do we. I didn’t like to be mistreated when I was already in a vulnerable situation. I got tired of meeting people that did not understand and where I had to try to get them to understand. Those who are not doing his work and then questioned me because they themselves are not doing work. When a single sought the extra security in everyday life. When was sick and still got questioned. I felt that it was time to stop talking about my life to these cold-hearted people. The whole time I thought that my journey would be much better. Today, everything is better because I have chosen people who I don’t respect me. Those who knew so much better, and which is still standing in the same spot and stomping. Those who refused to listen when I was in a vulnerable situation. They themselves had need to be nasty.

The people who made the choice to not listen and to make things much worse for me when I told them my story, I don’t do something about it. They are sad and tragic people who press down and which also exploits its position of power. What I do know so many work do not remain on their positions of power by those who treated me badly. I have a different kind of power and it is that I am liked by many people. It happens after a meeting where I have been mistreated is that you did wrong is not go out from the meeting as a winner. I may be upset and angry but I am here to stay. There is nothing that you can do about it. Your subject who worked under you was with you and lied about your behavior. Said you had not said what you had said. We all know the 3 who sat in the meeting what was said. We know all of them that you only received support from your colleague, because you were her manager at the time. Because I am a girl who goes on so I can live with what happened. 

There are many thoughts as I walk around and think about right now and that is why I clear out a little bit here on the blog. It feels nice to be able to do a final cleanup of what I have just written about. For after a few years when it has become so stupid in that meeting so I had to redress. I got very good contact with a person who understood my situation. Who took the time to try to do the best for my son and me. It is what  she and her whole staff did and still doing is an absolutely fantastic work, and I feel confident. They are real everyday heroes. So after everything that happened in the past so have these people really given me new hope for the future. I got the time that I needed and there was no weirdness and life is good. Everyday life has become very good and I am not asking for too much. We people have different periods in life where we need that little extra. Despite previous bad experiences of asking for that little extra to get a better life so I made it for my son’s sake. That is what a good parent does.  

I have written and thanked the headmaster at my son’s school and the people who work there know that I am so grateful to them for their work at the school every day. I say what I think and whether it is good or bad, it spreads my words faster than the wind. Not only through internet but due to the lovely crow  😈 

My words spread also in my music, and soon so will the new music from me. You may hold out a bit to  😛 

Take Care Of Each Other 

Many Hugs From MinikeGirl 

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Think it was a perfect moderate portion :)

Today I slept a little longer in the morning when I got off my son to his school. It is needed sometimes and I decide for myself my hours so it works out good to do so. I tend to usually be up very early on the work because I like to get started as early as possible. 

Feels wonderful with the a new week especially now when it’s better weather out there and I have come a long way with all of my work, both in terms of the music and with my blog.

Yesterday evening, I made a big big burger that tasted very good. There is a big difference in the size of the burgers now-a-days. I like the greatest and my son likes the between the big. So they in the picture here is a middle version and a bigger version.  

Here is the picture of how my plate was with the big hamburger. Think it was a perfect moderate portion when I wanted to have a little bit of everything.

Now shall I take and do a little food here it’s time again  😛 

Take Care Of Each Other 

Many Hugs From MinikeGirl 

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Sometimes it gets complex first, before it gets developed simply :)

I’m about to get on one of my new pieces of computer which is really exciting. Happens something new all the time actually lol. It is not the only device that I’ll get the order in now in the nearest future but the present is one of the two. The lights in all cases, Hihi  😛 .  My current laptop I have had for quite a while now and it is time to innovate a little. So we’ll see how it goes with everything. There is also a button that has come off also which I have pasted. I need to have a computer that I can see in comics and movies when I am training well and I want to avoid having to move around the data that I have. It has taken so long for me to arrange this, so now is the time. 

Sometimes it gets complex first, before it gets developed simply hihi  :mrgreen: 

I know that it’s going to be big in all cases. It will be so lovely to get started with my training again I crave.

There were times it :   😆 😀

Take Care Of Each Other 

Many Hugs From MinikeGirl 

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Problem Solved :)

Finally, everything is arranged again, I had a little problem with my blog now since yesterday. My webmaster had to jump in and work tonight to get the order of what needed to be done. He could quickly see what was wrong and and now it is fixed. So there have been some features that have been turned off. You who know me previously, and followed my previous blog know that I had so much trouble with all the widgets. Hihi it’s still widgets-war, apparently, but now I have my webmaster who is extremely competent and can help me. 

Now I’ll finally take and sleep here soon. So I’ll work on it again tomorrow. Tomorrow I am going to sleep a little longer in the morning then it is the weekend and since I am up now in the middle of the night  😛 
Take Care Of Each Other 
Many Hugs From MinikeGirl  🙂 
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