Honesty towards oneself is something that I think is very important. I know how I want to live my life and I have plans for the future. It can be difficult for other people to let other people be. What is the right way for one person may be something that is not working at all in someone else’s life. I prioritize as I do and I give priority to different than what people who are not single make. I do not have a steady relationship since time immemorial who stand and applaud in everything that I do. I don’t have a housewife, who takes care of my home. It makes that I, as a single with my son a priority in a different way to existing our everyday life. Structure things up and get everyday life to function very well is something that I am very good at. It is so easy for those of you who live a completely different life find lots of things about my life that you don’t have a clue about how it really is. I am a warrior and I used to sit awake the whole night and figure out how I should plan the future so it will be as good as possible. Many do not know where the limits are and it is shameful that it is so difficult to let other people be. It is shameful to think that it is that you yourself do and think is so amazing that you ignore who it is that offends and what are the relationships that you destroy.
It really does not need to be the people who should understand who you are and who you have known the longest, who actually understand who you are. Want to know who you are and who loves you for who you are. But everyone I know knows who I am except a few people. But it is these few people who are trying to teach me that what one feels does not play any role. The main thing is what other people think about you and your reputation. I’d rather be hated for myself. Than loved for all the time I tried to be a person that these few people want me to be. To constantly strive to meet others ‘ requirements in order to be loved and respected I don’t feel like my first priority. To violate a man through a smile while you say you want my best is the real entertainment at a high level. Distance and balance between how much you should turn off is a job all of the time and that takes much of my energy. Right now, I have not so much energy that I want. But I live in reality and understand that most of the people that I know. I understand that it can be difficult to understand everything I do and not do. But how I live my life should be up to me but I may never be left alone which results in inaction.
Just to help other people doesnt means that you own them like you own things. I am not a chattel to I receive help. Often hear that I am not good enough as I am and that what I’m doing and fighting for all the time is not good enough.
Have you not learned anything about me?
Do you not know who I am?
You have no idea about most of what you want it to seem like you have. You are trapped in your bubble for it is safety and it is a choice that you have made. But I choose not to be drawn into this bubble of yours. It has long been a tug-of-war. You have lost what you thought I was, and what you deep down wanted to be I that I never was. You have lost and it was fixed. It is default when you have unreasonable demands on other people and now it has become as it has become. It’s easy to let people act how they want just because they get away by manipulating reality for themselves in order to feel good.
Haha 😛 no I was not, as some people wanted me to be and I’m so happy about this 😛 !
It’s when you take away the things that people have of you that you can finally be free and have you stopped to bother you so it is much easier 😛
Wish you all a Great Weekend all my Lovely People 😛