Questioned Every Time



I takes me just longer and longer until, in my work with myself. It’s not that I don’t really know when it will be these slump periods, as you call it. I ignore completely when they will, if you say so, but many other people will be surprised when it happens. You will be questioned every time and it takes a lot of energy from me.

Each time I am well prepared I have noticed since I myself know how I operate, so it is not really a downswing in itself that is the most demanding. What is most demanding is the people who don’t understand. There is a difference between not understand and to not understand and to question in order to press down the person who is in a slump. One question, of course, not a newly-operated cardiac patient about why he is not at his work or at the gym. This question not for there is a great risk that the newly-operated die if they do not take it easy. But I then ? I who live with mental ill-health called into question every time when my soul needs rest in order to not wither away and die. I questioned why I do not work and are as good as any other. Just want to explain that when I have my worst days so I am as worn and tired as a newly-operated person.

It is then that those who do not understand the whole this thing with living with mental illness actually get to feel the fatigue that I have each day. Some days I’m less tired than other days. Feeling better and worse, it varies. But I am proud to be me and I do not doubt myself despite the fact that others do it. Despite the fact that the other does not understand how I work. My whole life I have worked by myself for me to be able to reduce the high and lows. What I notice is that the less other people have to compare it with, the more understanding and less questioning.
There is less questioning when I’m completely sick than when I can work good in some periods. So the healthier I get the more harder it will be with other people who don’t understand the whole process. I get discouraged in my own recovery and I compared all the time with my best and worst days.


This time when I ran out of energy in total is not that I have failed in what I’m doing, but it belongs to my continuous process to take me further and develop to the stronger :

  • I have written more songs than the last of my energy ran out . 11 songs on Spotify
  • I’ve added one more  work area at the later time.
  • I also work here at the Finest20170418_141023.jpg
So when many people are still stuck in their position as a major question mark so I am constantly under development and I’ll take me forward. I am learning all the time to use my gear that I have and I can not find something that works so I create a new gear for it.
Stop trying to explain to people who do not want to understand, surround yourself with people who allow you to be regardless of whether they understand you or not.
Take care of each other 😀
Many Hugs From MinikeGirl 😛 
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Played football yesterday with my son and it is always so fun. I have played a lot when I was younger, and I even get a couple of good shots when we run. But since I’m not much of a scorer so I’m just glad that I can make the ball go into the goal. There are more golf feels and the sniping it feels like when I run. I have good footwork, but since I have a bit of a hard time with concentration, so it may not be something that interferes with.

When I  was screaming that it is not so easy to play football to my son. Then he called back that it is not difficult for ZLATAN. So it did not matter that I fell and missed the goal and stuff the main thing is that I know how to do 😛 . I still have a little bit of ZLATAN STYLE when I play football because I am damn stubborn.


It is really fun with football and that I and my son can play it together. Important for me to have the strength to do these things with my son. I like sports and to have a healthy strong body.
Have the Best my Lovely Readers 😛 
Many Hugs From MinikeGirl 😀 
( I dont got any Money from Adidas for my Picture I just Love My Shoes 😛 )
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I’m a real gangster


Feels wonderful to have ended up in a position where I become a bit of my old self  again where I don’t care about some things. Sometimes you have to pick up your old self. I do this very controlled when my old I’m a real gangster. But some people want to meet my old self  again  so why not ?

On my weak points and completely ignore how I feel only you may feel that you are so the best. Then even I have my limits. These limits are now a total of destroyed so now I’m thinking I ignore if I’m treading on some sore points of the other. All the other paws on the toe all the time for these people but now I no longer have anything to do with this anymore so I release everything. It’s not about trying to be accommodating. It is not that I break the contacts, but it is about the people themselves choose not to want to be with anymore. It is about some people don’t deserve me. You don’t deserve me when you think I’m useless and not good enough. What I do never counted and you complain just about everything and don’t know where the limits are. Then I have no more energy to put on these people.

I am no mind reader just to understand what other people mean all the time with their behaviour. I am not a person who you can trample on too much and it doesn’t matter who stands in the way. I have taken the big far on my journey and I do everything for my son. But is there are always loads of idiots all the time complaining at me because they think they own me. They think that they are the best in the whole world. So jealous.

If you have nothing yourself to come up with some people that it feels better to complain on the other. Require that other people do as they want and nothing is ever good enough. Therefore, I have put a stop to this now. It’s fun to annoy me when you constantly have someone else all the time defending one. Yourself you would never dare. The difference is that I dare to take things eye to eye without any fucking army that pops up whenever you feel threatened and not have something good to say. MinikeGirl

Who knows there may come a day that another person ladders out in the freedom fresh and ’ m fit and ready to fulfil his role. Then if that is the case then I won’t hinder or try to destroy in any way. My son is worth so much. No matter what has happened or will happen so I want you to be healthy for you to be able to have contact in the future. So fight for it for as I said, I’m not going to prevent a future contact between you in the future. But you have to be healthy.

My goal is that there should be a contact between you and I hope that you will fight for the same thing here.
It is important that you prioritize what is important to be able to achieve what you want in their life. It is not possible to correct everything, but it is possible to do better. It’s always possible to do anything.
I do what I do but I don’t hate anymore, but I stretch out the hand for a future opportunity for it is what is important here.
Take Care of Each Other 😉 
Many Hugs From MinikeGirl 😛 
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Amazingly Wonderful :)

17884630_1228102760646137_6313495232815833993_nIn my whole life so I have always been so loyal to others to progress to the end was that I lived in as a cult. Opinions were not mine in the end and I stopped living and became something that others wanted, that I would be. Today so trying these people still propagate this sect resembled the invention. Something that suggests a behavior that is not healthy. You have to let other people be. It can be as it has become now with how I handle this. It has become so that I’ve stopped caring about what others want to show up all the time that so perfectly. It is not my responsibility anymore to work for. I have my life and what I want to do in the future. But it will not be released until and then, I get to leave this situation as been around for so long. From a tragedy continued in another, where a part only see their own world all the time. 

Okay for me but I have given up my faith that it will be good in some situations. Therefore I take away my feelings in it all for they really have no where to do. It is not right to keep someone else’s perfect facade is the violation. It is not right that I who have taken me all the way here to have to endure all these abuses and dissatisfaction. Is it not time that these people start to examine themselves instead of all the time to look after the bunch of errors at me. What I’m doing. What I should have done. Point out with nice words and smiles that I am not good enough as I am.I must have a proper attraction force that some people believe that it is free to carp down on me. It goes for a while and it goes a few years. This has worked very well over a long period. Thanks and Applause to You, but now is the show end 😛 

It will feel amazingly wonderful now because I am in another crossroads in my life. A road that I should have taken a long time ago but because of the circumstances and feelings so I stood still. Also, my belief in change made that I got stuck. Go there long enough and my patience is exhausted as it is now, it is time for change.
You know that feeling that feels so good when you closed the other emotions? I have really missed this prosperous. I am worthy to feel good and I have fought hard to be able to have this balance that I have. There is so much within me that makes me so strong. My internal forces have been strengthened now in the past.
 Haha and really today 😛 


Nothing is impossible and I am a problem solver. I think outside the box and it takes me always forward. Just give me time and everything will be good. Chatting with my most Wonderful Friend yesterday who known me for a long time. So now is the future and the question is ………. ??

Are you ready for this ?

I am as Ready as I Can Be 😛 
Take Care Of Each Other
Many Hugs From MinikeGirl 😉 
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I dont have a Housewife


Honesty towards oneself is something that I think is very important. I know how I want to live my life and I have plans for the future. It can be difficult for other people to let other people be. What is the right way for one person may be something that is not working at all in someone else’s life. I prioritize as I do and I give priority to different than what people who are not single make. I do not have a steady relationship since time immemorial who stand and applaud in everything that I do. I don’t have a housewife, who takes care of my home. It makes that I, as a single with my son a priority in a different way to existing our everyday life. Structure things up and get everyday life to function very well is something that I am very good at. It is so easy for those of you who live a completely different life find lots of things about my life that you don’t have a clue about how it really is. I am a warrior and I used to sit awake the whole night and figure out how I should plan the future so it will be as good as possible. Many do not know where the limits are and it is shameful that it is so difficult to let other people be. It is shameful to think that it is that you yourself do and think is so amazing that you ignore who it is that offends and what are the relationships that you destroy.

It really does not need to be the people who should understand who you are and who you have known the longest, who actually understand who you are. Want to know who you are and who loves you for who you are. But everyone I know knows who I am except a few people. But it is these few people who are trying to teach me that what one feels does not play any role. The main thing is what other people think about you and your reputation. I’d rather be hated for myself. Than loved for all the time I tried to be a person that these few people want me to be. To constantly strive to meet others ’ requirements in order to be loved and respected I don’t feel like my first priority. To violate a man through a smile while you say you want my best is the real entertainment at a high level. Distance and balance between how much you should turn off is a job all of the time and that takes much of my energy. Right now, I have not so much energy that I want. But I live in reality and understand that most of the people that I know. I understand that it can be difficult to understand everything I do and not do. But how I live my life should be up to me but I may never be left alone which results in inaction.

Just to help other people doesnt means that you own them like you own things. I am not a chattel to I receive help. Often hear that I am not good enough as I am and that what I’m doing and fighting for all the time is not good enough.

But do you know what?
You are wrong and you are not the best in the whole world and I don’t want to hang out with people like you. So stay there in your bubble so I continue to get the respect and love of the whole world instead.
I love to be creative and I’m not afraid if people think I’m weird or not like everyone else. But that is the fear all the time of people who have a large control needs. It is losing its control. They break you down and tries to mould you into someone who is easy to control. They often try to get you to be unsure when it comes to how you should be and behave when there are other people around. 


Have you not learned anything about life ?

Have you not learned anything about me?

Do you not know who I am?

You have no idea about most of what you want it to seem like you have. You are trapped in your bubble for it is safety and it is a choice that you have made. But I choose not to be drawn into this bubble of yours. It has long been a tug-of-war. You have lost what you thought I was, and what you deep down wanted to be I that I never was. You have lost and it was fixed. It is default when you have unreasonable demands on other people and now it has become as it has become. It’s easy to let people act how they want just because they get away by manipulating reality for themselves in order to feel good.

Haha 😛  no I was not, as some people wanted me to be and I’m so happy about this  😛 !

It’s when you take away the things that people have of you that you can finally be free and have you stopped to bother you so it is much easier 😛 

Wish you all a Great Weekend all my Lovely People  😛 


Many Hugs From MinikeGirl 😀 
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People From All Countries Are Welcome To Read My Blog :)

Hi the World 😛  it would be really fun if you could comment on from which country you come from who read my blog. All nationalities are Welcome to write from which country you are from 😀 

I love different countries ’ flags and not just the Swedish Flag, but it is because I like different people. I like the culture and the differences and similarities between people. We live here on this Earth together and we need to cooperate and agree to work with each other together and not be afraid of each other. Unfortunately, there are many people who are so fanatical in what they believe is the only way and they are not content just to find what they like, but they do not care about what stands in the way. But I would argue that we are many more who want peace here on earth and we want to have an earth left. All the evil that exists in this World is created by people and that means it is our task as humans is to destroy that which destroys our fellow human beings and our beautiful earth. galaxy-2150186__340

Don’t give up it will work out, even though it may be hard to believe on it in difficult times. But it is the hope that goodness will prevail that will save this world. It is the love of our fellow human beings, who will carry the future.

We agree that goodness will prevail we are moving together as a united people for the Future. It is about following your heart deep inside for no one is born evil.

Take care of each other and spread the Love 😛 
Comment which country you are from ?
Many Hugs From MinikeGirl 😀 
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