Now have my new shoes finally arrived and my west. I have on my new shoes now to get used to me a bit. You already know that I have my own style when it comes to both shoes and clothing. I like the green here, as you can see 😛
This is not to the ordinariness that I buy new shoes and it doesn’t mean I can’t. It’s just that I walk so much and have stuck to the standard black shoes that I dance in here in one of my musicvideo. Where I got the criticism that I had worn the shoes hahahaha 😛
It is not tricky with all these critics that come when you do something good? I am so happy with my musicvideo that are exactly like this. I could have been hired a bunch of people and had new purchased clothes and gone in a sports car. But the song is not about that. So You Can :
Despite the fact that I am not accustomed to stand in front of the camera so I have made this musicvideo to my song YOU CAN. It was a real challenge for me and I am so proud of myself. So I have really not bought new shoes that I got the criticism that I had them in my music video but I have bought them because I can.
In this musicvideo to my song Shadows Art , so I had these boots :
It is fantastic to have done 2 music videos and to be able to constantly sit and write music as I do. I get daily many who write to me that they love my music and I write songs that affect them. A thousand Thanks to all of you you are wonderful.
Take Care Of Each Other
Many Hugs From MinikeGirl 😛
I and my son was and bought so much food yesterday after we decided that we could manage it. Act as much food and have their children with is just as exciting every time. Think it is important that he gets to be with and he thinks it is fun. We walked into the store when it was light outside and we came out of the store when it was dark. There is a lot to work with then when you get home with all the goods but it is best to and then it’s done. I like to be able to fill up the freezer and the refrigerator then do not have to shop so often 😛
To sort all our clothes and run a few extra washers. Cleans out and buy some new clothes. Cleaned my son’s room and he has got to decide which toys he wants to keep and who he wants to give away. It is so easy to accumulate too much stuff. Good energy to get in a home that does not have too much things because the bad energy gets stuck easy if you have a lot of things. Energy needs space to move on and to be able to take forward. I feel the difference so much that it just feels liberating to clean.
I clean in a healthy way for it is not possible to clean all the time. I have those days that it is not a priority for me to clean up but the days I let be so. I know I still get it cleaned then anyway 😛
It is healthy for me to get these days when I’m at home no matter really what I do at home. Is there a way for me to manage myself and to feel calm. It goes to the big a lot of energy for me just by I am outside of my home. Also, if I do things that I love. I’m like a bad burned mobile battery that can go from 1 million % of the battery rapidly to a total – 500000 % .
This is why we can’t hang out or that I can work some periods. This is why I sometimes you just have to go home when I can. While I do not choose to go away for much. Everything is carefully planned by me because I want to have so good balance of everything as possible in this imbalance. Fixes this very good, I think. Many people often wonder when it comes to me.
Why does she not ?
Why does she do it ?
The answer to the questions is that I do it when I’m ready and when I can. I’m not lackadaisical or lazy, I work and live all the time in order to maintain balance. I have chosen to fight with myself every day because I am a strong and worthy opponent. It is the success in my own development, which allowed me to continue and it is also the acceptance to stop myself, where it is useless. Better to give priority to what works than to begin to prioritize and spend energy on it that will only take energy from it that works and I go backwards 😛
There is always something going on and I’ll continue to work here with my music hihi so Lovely 🙂
Will focus on taking each day as it comes 😛
Take Care Of Each Other
Many Hugs From MinikeGirl
Yesterday 😛 , it was an interesting day that separated themselves a bit from the other days when it does not occur so often. But I know myself so well that I can quickly read and analyze what I need to do. I was a bit ill yesterday for those who do not know how I work. But this is recurring every month. Now think that it is your period but it is not entirely wrong to think so. We like to think that your period will be the 20 no weirdness at all. I have errors on my thyroid and take medicine for it and it works great. But should I have my period around the 20 so starts my body to complicate already the 13. It has become much worse in recent years, and it’s like my hormones get the free spin and that the medicine does not help as it should a week before your period. When my medication does not help, so it goes on me, both physically and mentally, and I become even more tired than usual. I will of course check this with my doctor. These symptoms usually come one step at the time so Iam able to know when the fatigue will gradually. What happened yesterday was like someone pressed a button. So there I sat at work in the couch and my bodily defense mechanisms shuts down me to gather new energy. It is a little easier for me if stuff like this happens when you are at home then there will be less work for me to gather new energy. But I’m stubborn and have no problem with carrying myself home in the best possible way. It is just to be firm and clear with myself and take myself home 😛
You who know me know that I have so much self irony and humor that I think this is terribly funny at the same time as I, of course, will hear of me to a doctor. Iam and work as I do and most people know that I am doing what I can according to my capacity. My capabilities may differ tremendously from day-to-day, and then it is so. Sometimes it is like I get into an involuntary hibernation, but I know that I need it to do on other days. There are many factors that made that I knew yesterday, now so. But the biggest sign was that I went from being very keen to feel that I would be able to fall asleep and I was on my way to do it if I had put me down.
I can never make as straight of which I have had sleeping problems for about 15 years. Falling asleep in the middle of the day in addition to after lot of coffee. Easy-to-read myself there. I open with this because I think it is important to spread the message that despite the fact that we are who we are, and suffer what we have, we are Amazing.
Important to accept yourself and surround yourself by people who understand. Sometimes, it can’t get other people to understand and then it is important that you know how you work and that you accept yourself.
Today as mixed/mastered it with my next song in the studio and I am preparing to soon let you hear 🙂 .
A thousand Thanks to those of you who follow me on my Music Journey :
Take Care Of Yourself and Each Other
Many Hugs From MinikeGirl
Played out my 14 song yesterday 😛 .It was really fun and there is always a new challenge for me. I never know how my senses are the days that I shall record but it has gone well so far. Sometimes I have good focus and other times it takes a little longer for me to get it as I want it. But it is enough for most people. So it is with creativity and there is nothing that can completely control. Sometimes it will fully automatically, and sometimes it takes a little bit longer. Some days I can write a lot of music.
Other days, it can’t write a line of text. But that is the way it is and I like that it is so. I have very many thoughts about a lot and I have a good imagination. It helps me when I write my music and work is not a thing, then I try something else. I have an internal strong performance anxiety where I know how I want it to be. I struggle all the time to achieve the achievement that I have fixed. I know how I want it so I’m tough on myself. Know that the end result always makes me more than satisfied regarding my music.
Therefore, it is worth that I am tough on myself. I know exactly what I want and how hard I can push myself when it comes to the music. Sometimes so close I only of all things, and I get blocked in it as I do, and it can be about anything. But I’ve learned to deal with this in a good way so it will not be any big problems. I have good self-awareness and I’m not ashamed to tell other people when I become blocked in my senses. Those who know me see all the time that I am trying to in spite of everything. I am a person who needs a lot of time and repeated routines that suit me so therefore structure the I up the a good everyday. A weekday where I in a smart way all the time fix the small things that make everyday life simpler for to be able to constantly do it as I do. Adapt to the outside world as good as possible but also to be able to be yourself as much as I can 😛
I have not always liked myself as a person and how I have acted. I have acted wrong many times in pure frustation in that everything I did was wrong all the time. Finally, was there anything that was the only thing that I knew. It was something that became my false sense of security. When it was something that I actually did well so it felt like I was not worthy to be good. Then I acted wrong instead of that it was my false sense of security. This was not a healthy behavior and I drew to me the wrong kind of people. People who were like me, and I felt respected in all the chaos that constantly arose. It was like to be living death and to be totally outside the society in which I feel like a part of nowadays. I had to accept myself at the time and I had no choice. It was a hell to me, for I could not control myself. The road to the person I am today has not been easy but I’m very proud of the person I have become. I think about myself today and I know who I am.
Maybe I can’t explain in words who I am but I can tell you that I think about myself. My new I, I have not had in so many years, so it’s new to me. I know what I want and I know what I can do. I is also for me a mystery which I find very interesting and I love to be me.
Amazing to get to experience it as I do with everything today. I am so grateful that I never gave up. I am grateful for all the people who believe in me.
Take Care Of Each Other
Many Hugs From MinikeGirl 😛
Have had a big nice and cosy weekend now, with many fun events. My son has played football and played games with his buddies. We have met the near and dear and I have gotten help with many things that I wanted to get on here at home. Haha 😛 it was I who started a further project now in the weekend as there was so much done. Really need to have some days now when there is so much happening but a few days with less to do. It is I who puts up the borders and I can be tough on myself to reach where I want to. When I see it all the time going to reach my set targets, it is given me to continue. It gets me all the time like a little more and it allowed me to constantly upgrade myself. Become stronger and more confident in it as I already can and to dare to learn new things are good challenges for me. Many people who complain about me for many different reasons, are often the people who do not know what they are. They wouldn’t dare it as I actually dare to. I am not an easy opponent because I have so many sides and emotions. To battle against myself is and will always be for me the most worthy opponent I will ever face. The people who think that they have been able to break me down have not done it, but it has been based on that I have enjoyed them. The people who go around and think that they have the ability to break down me don’t have the ability. It is my strong ability to love other people who have been released into these people in depth, and hence made me very vulnerable.
Now-a-days, you have not a chance that I will love you if I have decided that I don’t want to. It stops there for I will choose carefully the people I love. It means that I can control my emotions in a completely different way than in the past. When I love other people, I do it ruthlessly, and that’s why you feel in the whole room if I like you. Then I like you as a person, but had I loved you so, had you known it million times stronger. I don’t have some feelings for you at all, it is the other way. I is medial and this is why I can be very emotional and have a lot of feelings.Feel strongly what others are feeling and experiencing. Life and death go through me for I am a kind of portal for everything and I’m a link and I can open and close the links. Something that I’ve mastered skillfully. It is not any stranger for me than you maybe really good at math which I am not. Perhaps you are afraid of stuff like this that is all about energies and spirits, while I can get a panic in a shop for that there is too much stuff there. When I’m tired and just want to escape from there to something more quiet place. To a place where you would probably have a panic if you saw a lot of spirits and energies but in a place where I would become completely peaceful and be totally relaxed.
We are different and stuff that you pass by in everyday life, which I think is a big stressful as you do not even reflect upon can destroy an entire day for me. One day, it is not at all stressful for me and the other day it is completely panic-stricken. But it is enough divided so that since I have the other that I’m not afraid at all, and you, possibly, it is, so it still feels good, and fair 😛 .Right now, I have the need to buy clothes online because I need some new clothes. But I don’t have the ability to focus on online shopping right now. It is what I mean by saying that we have all people of different abilities and they can be different strengths from day to day. Sometimes I have the focus to go through 12 thousand different garments and choose out about 5 of them and buy 3 but not today 😛
But when it comes to the people I should love, it is an ability that all the time is strong.
Take Care Of Each Other 😛
Many Hugs From MinikeGirl
Haha 😛 it was so long ago that I did like this face mask and it is seen really for I have not quite the talent to put it nicely. But it is what it is best here you do not need to be anything professional. Think it feels good and it’s the main thing. I have also been using a toothpaste now on the latest which is absolutely superb and magical, for it has removed all the discoloration from my teeth. I drink so much coffee, which has ruined my teeth’s natural shade. The toothpaste I use has saved me. in connection with the fact that I was the second so I bought a lipgloss that is the top. I’m a star in the to use lipgloss because it was always a ”must ” when I was younger. So it is important for me that it is good products. I work a lot in front of the computer and also have a imbalance in my thyroid that I need to constantly take care of my skin. It is also important for me to give myself a day like this then I just may be.
It was by pure chance that I found this girl that sells these products on my facebook : https://www.facebook.com/emma.pilthammar?fref=ts
I found a group on facebook where I also found all these awesome beauty products: https://www.facebook.com/groups/1405116009524489/?fref=ts Talk to Emma if you want to get in her group on Facebook 😛
It is time for me to wash away this awesome face mask now and continue to work on
Have the best all my lovely listeners and readers
Take care of each other 😛